May142013
April282013

On Coming Out…

Okay, so I’m out to pretty much all of my close friends, a few of my classmates, and a few close family members. And to my tumbler follers now, I guess. 

But why is it that its so hard to come out to others? Why is it that I can’t simply tell these people “I’m Gay” and leave it at that?

Why do I have to go day to day with guys in my class telling me about some hot girl in the class and asking me if I’d “tap that,” or hear my grandmother ask me every once in a while about the ongoing number of girls that are obviously dropping at my feet?

Why do I have to hide my valentines presents from my cousins, or not talk about who they’re from when my Aunt asks “oh, I see you have a valentine.”

Why do I have to sit around and question whether or not God loves me and try and interpret the bible to fit my lifestyle, while at the same time sitting and watching happy straight men walk around without worry of eternal damnation or hiding who they really are.

Why do I have to sit and listen to my female best friends go on and on about that hot guy that I have a crush on, knowing deep down inside that I could never get the man I want not even because of a flaw in my personality, or because I’m not beautiful enough, or because I have bad teeth, or because I’m antisocial or weird or short or dumb or too quiet or too loud, but merely because I’m a man.

I’ll tell you why. Cause life sucks. I mean it REALLY does.

Now, there are many WONDERFUL things about life, many reasons to live. But that brings up another question- why is it that some people receive more opportunities than others to enjoy these wonderful things in life? Why are some people born to rich parents and have everything they could ever dream of, while some are born to poor parents and only DREAM of having the things they want. 

But in that same sense, why are some people born to those rich parents, but still feel empty in the world?

I know, I know- some psycho-babble-bullshit about how all these things make you stronger in the end, and make you a well rounded person and all that jazz.

…So what about those that have killed themselves, or lost their lives before they were able to achieve this heightened state of “better living?” Why do they not get the chance to grow from the things in their lives?

Because life sucks. Its random, and its routine, and its racist, and its sexist, and its great for the fortunate, and great for the less fortunate, and it sucks for the fortunate and the less fortunate, and it spews hatred and bigotry and lies and betrayal and love and passion and music and sex and art and everything else.

You want to know why life really sucks? It doesn’t give a shit about anybody but itself. Life goes on, after having beat its people to a pulp, drained the souls out of them, forced them into prisons and rehab centers and school systems.

No one is ever good enough for life, except for the God that we read about in bible study, or the vampires we read about in Twilight and Vampire Diaries.


I really wish we could live in a world where life treated everyone fairly. Where everyone, black or white, has to face the day when their dog dies. Where everyone, short or tall, has to face the day when they break a leg. Where everyone, smart or less smart, has to face the day that they lose their virginity to the love of their life. Where Everyone, drug addict or child prodigy, has to witness the death of their little brother. Where EVERYONE, RICH OR POOR, has to see their dream realized and live a happy life.

Where everyone, gay or straight, has to come out to their friends, their classmates, their teachers, their bosses, their neighbors, their cousins, their aunts and uncles, their grandparents, their brothers and sisters, their parents… themselves.

I just wish life were a little less… selfish, I guess.

Is that so much to ask?

April242013

(Source: chambergambit, via sophiegeorge)

2AM
babblingfishes:

steampoweredcupcake:

baronessvonbullshit:

awkwardstandinglewiskennedy:

offworldcolonies:

Man the 90’s were weird.

Its like we got all this new technology and didnt know what to do with it.

the war on drugs has failed.

was i the only one who thought that your head would actually turn into fruit if you ate one because i did and me and a friend got some and we each ate one and then i looked at her and lied and screamed that she looked just like a watermelon and she started crying

You what

babblingfishes:

steampoweredcupcake:

baronessvonbullshit:

awkwardstandinglewiskennedy:

offworldcolonies:

Man the 90’s were weird.

Its like we got all this new technology and didnt know what to do with it.

the war on drugs has failed.

was i the only one who thought that your head would actually turn into fruit if you ate one because i did and me and a friend got some and we each ate one and then i looked at her and lied and screamed that she looked just like a watermelon and she started crying

You what

(Source: obama-fix-this, via magic-to-do)

2AM

THIS FUCKING PERSON IS GOLDEN
ALL OF THE AWARDS.

THIS FUCKING PERSON IS GOLDEN

ALL OF THE AWARDS.

image

(Source: feurety, via magic-to-do)

2AM

mrsmelchiorgabor:

this is what heterophobia would look like if it was real.

(via lachowskiz)

1AM
im-fine-byee:

lightning—bolts:

alisronson:

adreamer2013:

bella-beautifulz:

sponders:

r0llerc0aster-ride:

piercethebandmerch:

cantlivewithoutlyrics:


March 2. This girl is already dead.
I will forever Reblog this



YOU REBLOG THIS NO MATTER WHAT KIND OF BLOG YOU ARE D:<

If you don’t reblog this I’m judging you

I tend to ignore the comments above but this is such an important message, let people speak, just listen. 


Some populars are just so self involved the don’t see that they’re really not all that popular -.- 

if you just heard a little crack, that was my heart

stop. this is terrible.

im-fine-byee:

lightning—bolts:

alisronson:

adreamer2013:

bella-beautifulz:

sponders:

r0llerc0aster-ride:

piercethebandmerch:

cantlivewithoutlyrics:

March 2. This girl is already dead.

I will forever Reblog this

image

YOU REBLOG THIS NO MATTER WHAT KIND OF BLOG YOU ARE D:<

If you don’t reblog this I’m judging you

I tend to ignore the comments above but this is such an important message, let people speak, just listen. 

Some populars are just so self involved the don’t see that they’re really not all that popular -.- 

if you just heard a little crack, that was my heart

stop. this is terrible.

(Source: itsonlyouandme, via theabundanceofkatheryn)

1AM
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

(via theabundanceofkatheryn)

April222013
clariiity:

a-red-panda:




this has a deeper meaning. the light bulb represents an idea of an individual and the mouse trap represents how quick society is to destroy that idea.

are you fucking retarded no its just a lightbulb falling on a mousetrap shut the fuck up 

Guys idk what the meaning is but if it is what the first person said you’re kind of proving it right. She said her idea and now you’re judging it, just like she said society would. 



woah^

clariiity:

a-red-panda:

this has a deeper meaning. the light bulb represents an idea of an individual and the mouse trap represents how quick society is to destroy that idea.

are you fucking retarded no its just a lightbulb falling on a mousetrap shut the fuck up 

Guys idk what the meaning is but if it is what the first person said you’re kind of proving it right. She said her idea and now you’re judging it, just like she said society would. 

woah^

(Source: mikegoedecke, via thedevilsingssondheim)

April182013

mynameisgrey:

incipient:

lovett91:

failstun:

tomhiddledong:

innercheeseburger:

tomhiddledong:

the mediocre gatsby

the decent wall of china 

the ok depression

alright britain

The mildly interesting barrier reef

somewhat fulfilled expectations. 

alexander the good enough

the acceptable outdoors

(Source: gayfather, via magic-to-do)

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